Bad girl..

April 5th, 2007 by ceazar

weeeee…It’s JJ Shopping day again!..I’m taking a leave yesterday and aware that it’s totally not a good habit..but really ‘need’ to reward myself..:D

Unfortunately enough I knocked a car the day before..so I have to save a portion of my shopping budget for the repair..uwaaaaa…that RM230 was suppposedly spent for my 3-years dream perfume, Ralph..takperla..nak buat macamana..bende dah jadi..

Still I was overspending a little..he he..instead of only spending RM200, I managed to spend about RM300 yesterday..hoorayyy!!!!! and managed to get all I wanted..a pair of shoes, a bottle of perfume (really cheap one), 2 n 1/2 pairs of traditional clothing, a handbag, a pillow and +++…wahahhah che’ Tipah kaya..just imagine how I carried those things back by LRT..with all those staring eyes…

The parking was horrible..adoi..by 9.00 a.m pon..the car park was full… it just by luck jer we got a free space around the corner..n guess what..just by the time Tini manage to get to her car..she saw this Bandaraya guys busy ’saman’ing all the cars next to hers.. woo scary maann…nasib baikla tak suruh Tini tunggu..

:D Puas..yep..I always have a peace of mind whenever get to shop lavishly..tapi apa nak buat..kita bukannya kaya kan..I’ll see whether next year I got to buy my dream perfume again..or at least thingking of buying..k adioz..

akan keringkah tasik..sekiranya bayu kejam menhembus salju..kan keringkah hati…jika sedingin ini ku baluti pilu..

April 2nd, 2007 by ceazar

It’s 2nd of February..’ve been 2 days since my 27th bday last saturday..and tell you what..this year it felt suck!..Err..I mean..ntahla..weekend yg agak depressing..kat mana silapnya? tatau..salah makan kot..:D..yg Zar ingat Zar sambut detik 12.00 mlm tuh dengan setitis air mata..not to let my housemet saw of coz..tataula kalau kantoi..but so far no trace..

On the big day pon Zar x buat apa except activity hujung minggu (basuh baju, kemas rumah and lepakkin’)..bosan duk rumah..zar pergi jln TAR ptg tuh..dgn member..br hrtuh Zar dpt satu berita yg sepatutnya menggembirakan..sekali lg setitis air mata keluar..air mata gembira?.. :) cover lagi..hahah..yeah..be strong rite.. Alhamdulillah..I really proud with my heart..able to react cooly all the day..

Nasib baik smlm ada gie attend wedding anak En Ramdzan..kalau tak sekali lagi Zar mandom..cuma tuhla..mlm xleh lelap psl ptg dah tidor..Ya Allah..tuhan jerla yg tahu perasaan masa tuh…habis2 Zar sambung tgk cerita depress "Amrou Jaan" sampai kul 3.00 pg..tgh2 depress layan cerita depress pon OK gaks..at least kita tenggelam dalam cerita org lain..and cerita tuh makan dalam aa..heavy emotional get involved..and I do learn something out of that..

Cerita tuh sebenarnya pasal kehidupan seorang pelacur atasan, so much like ‘geisha’ in Japan..she got kidnapped and trapped in the society since then..surprise to know that she get very well educated to become a geisha (more comfortable to call them geisha than a prostitute I think)..siap dengan religious teaching lagi..and don’t be surprise..she is a muslim..siap dengan sembahyang and berdo’a…tapi at the same time serve org la..yg nih very musykil…yg kesiannya sampai kesudah dia menderita…keluarga pon dah tak terima dia..kekasih buang dia atas fitnah..hmm..tuhla…sampai ke akhir sedih..tataula kat pawagam kat sana kene bakar panggung ke tidak..btw lakonan Aishwarya Rai is really somehin’…

An article I got from an email.. nice to share

March 25th, 2007 by ceazar
It’s been 18 years since I joined Volvo, a Swedish company. Working for them has proven to be an interesting experience. Any project here takes 2 years to be finalized, even if the idea is simple and brilliant. It’s a rule. Globalize processes have caused in us (all over the world) a general sense of searching for immediate results. Therefore, we have come to posses a need to see immediate results. This contrasts greatly with the slow movements of the Swedish. They, on the other hand, debate, debate, debate, hold x quantity of meetings and work with a slowdown scheme. At the end, this always yields better results.
Said in another words:
1. Sweden is about the size of San Pablo , a state in Brazil .
2. Sweden has 2 million inhabitants.
3. Stockholm , has 500,000 people.
4. Volvo, Escania, Ericsson, Electrolux, Nokia are some of its renowned companies. Volvo supplies the NASA.
The first time I was in Sweden , one of my colleagues picked me up at the hotel every morning. It was September, bit cold and snowy. We would arrive early at the company and he would park far away from the entrance (2000 employees drive their car to work). The first day, I didn’t say anything, either the second or third. One morning I asked, "Do you have a fixed parking space? I’ve noticed we park far from the entrance even when there are no other cars in the lot." To which he replied, "Since we’re here early we’ll have time to walk, and whoever gets in late will be late and need a place closer to the door. Don’t you think?" Imagine my face.
Nowadays, there’s a movement in Europe name Slow Food. This movement establishes that people should eat and drink slowly, with enough time to taste their food, spend time with the family, friends, without rushing. Slow Food is against its counterpart: the spirit of Fast Food and what it stands for as a lifestyle. Slow Food is the basis for a bigger movement called Slow Europe, as mentioned by Business Week.
Basically, the movement questions the sense of "hurry" and "craziness" generated by globalization, fueled by the desire of "having in quantity" (life status) versus "having with quality", "life quality" or the "quality of being". French people, even though they work 35 hours per week, are more productive than Americans or British. Germans have established 28.8 hour workweeks and have seen their productivity been driven up by 20%. This slow attitude has brought forth the US ’s attention, pupils of the fast and the "do it now!".
This no-rush attitude doesn’t represent doing less or having a lower productivity. It means working and doing things with greater quality, productivity, perfection, with attention to detail and less stress. It means reestablishing family values, friends, free and leisure time.
Taking the "now", present and concrete, versus the "global", undefined and anonymous. It means taking humans’ essential values, the simplicity of living.
It stands for a less coercive work environment, more happy, lighter and more productive where humans enjoy doing what they know best how to do. It’s time to stop and think on how companies need to develop serious quality with no-rush that will increase productivity and the quality of products and services, without losing the essence of spirit.
In the movie, Scent of a Woman, there’s a scene where Al Pacino asks a girl to dance and she replies, "I can’t, my boyfriend will be here any minute now". To which Al responds, "A life is lived in an instant". Then they dance to a tango.
Many of us live our lives running behind time, but we only reach it when we die of a heart attack or in a car accident rushing to be on time. Others are so anxious of living the future that they forget to live the present, which is the only time that truly exists. We all have equal time throughout the world. No one has more or less. The difference lies in how each one of us does with our time. We need to live each moment. As John Lennon said, "Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans".
Congratulations for reading till the end of this message. There are many who will have stopped in the middle so as not to waste time in this globalized world.

Jauh di mata tp dekat di hati..

January 21st, 2007 by ceazar

Siapa?? eheh..Melaka and those fellows being left behind..macamana I felt so much belongs to Surrey n UK..mcm tuhla Zar rasa for Melaka..bukan sekejap..5 tahun duk kat situh..byk sgt kenangannya…so setiap kali balik kg pon..rasa mcm tak sah kalau Zar tak lalu Melaka..bukan singgah pon..lalu pon jadi..rasa mcm balik kg jer rasa..

So last weekend biler dpt jemputan dari Yati n Muslim for their House-warming kenduri..I never miss the chance..boleh jumpa2 ngan K Fiza sekali..uhuksss..misses her already..Unfortunately..Kak Fae tade..balik kg jenguk rumah katanya..takut banjir..

Sampai ptg tuh..gie rumah Yati sat..nak tolong2..tapi mcm tade aper yg dpt buat..so me, met and Tini headed terus ker rumah K Fiza..Kelaparannnn..wahah..kitorang belasah kek yg Tini bawak utk K Fiza..chett..buruk siku..!! :D

Then malam gie rumah Yati..amik sekali K Zue and her children…hoho..1st time jumpa si kecik Akma..sorry..Cik Ina x lawat awal..:D..kenduri Yati kecik2 jer..part yg bestnyer..kitorang dpt makan banyak..wah kah kah..ngan nasiknyer yg sedap..waduhh..lappa rasa..Thanks Yati n Mus..sebab jemput kenduri..

D next morning main masak2..plan nak berjogging hancusss.. :p K Fiza was a superb host..siap masak baked macaroni..end up with eating our bfast at 11.00 a.m kalau x silap..eheh..then masak2 lunch pulaks..keadaan mmg meriah ngan kehadiran anak2 kak zue yg 3 tuh..waduhh..I siap jadik tukang cuci lantai lagiks..ekekkeksss.. Thank K Fiza, for your hospitality and seme2..

p/s: sempat singgah Giant, mlk..tapi x beli aper pon..tapi dpt selipar kiut..

Samsons consert 06/01/07

January 11th, 2007 by ceazar

Having a dull day in d office last Sat, the day was saved by the performance of 5 machos men that I admired since the song of Kenagan Terindah…don’t get me wrong of the type of girls busying their nights out, this is my 1st out to a concert except those Nasyeed days in MMU..I went with Wani who get 27 by 12 that night..and we got a free ticket through our ticket manager..Ms Aniza..he he he

It was fun..though it’s rainy till the end..there is one time when the rains get heavier when we decided to take off..clever enough, Samsons managed to get us stayed with the last two songs, Kenangan Terindah and Naluri Lelaki.. Adoila..but we’r lucky to manage to squeze ourself under this plastic cover covering the show camera..never care about who’s standing beside us (might probably some indons when the concert was dominated by their type) we sang along and really really absorbed by the performance. The shows ended before even 11.00 p.m..

sorry I didn’t have photos to display..ayoo..takutla nak bwk camera kat tempat2 cam tuh.. kang ilang kang…

p/s : masa nak masuk..sikit punya ketat diernyer security..ticket check..bag check..body check..and lastly pakai handbandla pulaks..

I’ll stand by you..

December 25th, 2006 by ceazar

hmm..menghabiskan masa dgn beberapa kegilaan all together last wiken quite overwhelmin’..not to mention the wedding invitations..dlm kepala simulteneously boleh dok rewind certain2 chapter in Harry Porter 1 (baru berjinak2 dgn buku dier  n tgh nak revise jugak film2 dier) and episods in korean drama "sweet 18"..rasa packed semacam… :))

And today laks terserempak dgn lagu yg tetiba jer..ehhh sukeerrr gilerr..I don’t think it’s about the lyrics..tapi ntah…mmg suker laa..

I’ll stand by you - suker yg Roxette nyanyi..

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don’t be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
’cause I’ve seen a dark side too

When the night falls on you
Don’t know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

So if you’re mad, get mad
Don’t hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I’m alot like you

When you’re standing at the crossroads
And don’t know which path to choose
Let me come along
’cause even if you’re wrong

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you

And when….
When the night falls on you ,baby
You’re feeling all alone
You won’t be on your own

Lastly..Selamat Pengantin Baru to Dr Fazly aka Paklong, Nadz, ct syafa and Kak Ema…really happy for you guys..

My trial for photobucket..

December 21st, 2006 by ceazar

hmm.. main2 ngan photobucket..tapi x leh upload laks.. try letak kat sinih laks..agak2 boleh baca x?

cheh..mmg x leh nak upload…nih yg tensi nihs.. x perla..

Yg Hilang..

December 18th, 2006 by ceazar

Dalam kegemilangan yg memuncak..

Kubiasakan diri dengan rasa istimewa..

Semangat yg membakar..

Tak pernah pudar rasa percaya…

Lalu sinarku terpancar segenap arah..

Hilang langsung sedikit kegelapan yg melanda..

Namun mengapa kini tiada lagi istimewa..

Hilang sudah rasa bangga..

Pudar sudah masa hadapan yg semakin tiada sirna..

Bukankah alam ini yg ku damba

Sehingga ku jejak tanah yg asing..

Sehingga ku gengam kemustahilan mengikut rasa..

Hilangkan warna diri..

Sehingga mimpi pon gagal ku corakkan…

Semakin ku takut menyemai impian..

Airmata pon murah berlinangan..

Salahkah diri menentu pilihan..

Agak bilakah bintang kan datang…

Walau ku belajar memahami rasa kehilangan…

Walau masih ku tongkah jalan dgn sedikit harapan..

Pada-Mu tuhan…kuserahkan kehidupan..

Seorang hamba yg kehilangan..

Tegarkah hati krn x kesah..atau tak rela hati ditandang kecewa…

November 26th, 2006 by ceazar

Time-time free mcm nihs (akhir bulanla katakan..)..mmg best biarkan fikiran melayang2..fikir bende2 yg tak sempat nak fikir masa lain..aicheewah..busy sgtla kononnya..tapi saja mengasah minda…

Acanni..arituh member pernah tanya.."Zar nko tak sedih ker?"..(merefer kpd suatu bende biasa)…biaser tak dengar pertanyaan2 mcm nih dikala kita dilanda sesuatu musibah..adoko tanyer mcm tuh..dah kene musibah..mestila sedihkan..

Cumanya macamana kita expresskan sedih kita tuh yg berbeza..ader org kalau sedih..dier akan murung memanjang… ader pulak byk makan..ader yg gie shopping (eheh..mcm kenal jer)..aderla yg mcm2..me myself..selalunya I choose to forget..for me, masalah/perasaan sedih tuh akan lebih menekan perasaan semakin kita fikir..amboi semakin tersayat2la hati konon..letih betul..

sometimes kita meluahkan kepada seseorang (which I do all the time)..tapi believe it or not..sometimes meluahkan nih lagi memburukkan keadaan..sometime ajer..tapi kalau meluahkan perasaan marah pasal geram kat org..mmg elok luahkan..kalau tak buat sebal kat hati jer..aper yg zar kata lg memburukkan tuh..pasal bila kita dah mula bercerita kat seseorang tuh..lagi lama laks kita nak ingat bende2 yg sayat nihs..yerla pendengar tuh dah jd mcm satu tempat tetap pulaks..bila pandang jer muka kawan kita yg pendengar nihs.. lagi tersayat2la kedukaan kita tuh..aicehhh.. poyo..and the story goes and on and on..so we might want to choose whether to tell or not to tell..and what is the motive of telling..

And paling penting kawal hati kita..org yg tegar dan tabah..selalu bangun dari dunia murung dan jadikan dugaan tuh satu challenge..and dia akan fight habies2an..barula boleh maju..tapi org yg semakin hanyut dgn perasaan adalah org yg paling rugi..korang perasan tak..melayan perasaan nih tak kemana perginya kita.. hopeless!

Zar ader kenal satu org yg cukup memendam..tak tau nak nak kata macamana..nak kata dier nih pendiam..tak pulaks..biaser berckp jer..tapi dier nih mmg takkan bercakap part2 yg dier sepatutnya KENE sedih..sampaikan kita yg melihat nih mmg tak tanyala..yerla kang tak kene gaya kang lagi sayat pulak..kesian jugak..tapi itu cara dier..kita kenela support..buat2 tak tahu..tapi kawan yg rapat..ambik2la tahu jugak sesikit eks..

Just nak ckp..sbg manusia..kita ader cara2 tersendiri bagaimana nak atasi masalah kita..find your ideal way..if you need to eat or shop to shift your attention on that matter..let it be..but beware of the consequences aaa…gemuks and pokai taktau..kdg2 misdirection nih berkesan jugaks..sometime pulak just alasan pasal mmg nak gie shopping kan…balik mcm tuh jugaks…sebal..

Aper2pon..Be strong bebeh !

Clear !!

November 21st, 2006 by ceazar

Itu yg Zar rasa today.. clear seclearnya.. and Alhamdulillah..rasa tenang setenang2nya to know the answer..satu dua hari nih something bugs me..to make me thinking and put a little hope…Alhamdulillah..harinih zar dah ader jawapannya…though it’s not the answer that I hope for..tapi at least relief..satu persoalan dalam hidup dah berlalu dengan smooth..

Macam tuh yg Zar harap dalam perjalanan hidup..hope sgt satu2 masalah atau persoalan hidup dapat zar lalui dgn tenang..dan paling touch..kalau directly Allah bantu untuk bagi kita answer tu…mmg touch sgtla…Allah, you d best..

Bercakap pasal harapan..manusia nihs tak pernah lepas dari harapan demi harapan..Sbg org Islam..pastilah kita sandarkan pada kenangan..eheh..kita sandarkan pada Pencipta kita sendiri..itu yang terbaik..tapi kenela ada usaha jugak kan..bila part usaha nih yg Zar takut…Adakah islam menghalalkan kita mencuba sesuatu yg diluar shar’ie semata2 atas alasan usaha…dan adakah kita nanti kan ditanyakan diakhirat nanti…Dimanakah usaha kamu utk mencapai harapan kamu sekiranya kita tidak berbuat apa2? ataukah cukup do’a itu sbg satu usaha..jawapannya Wallahu’alam..

Bagi Zar..walaumacamanapun..sure kita tidak boleh main langgar jer syarak atas apa sebab sekalipon kan.. (which frankly I did broke some rules that I know and believe are wrong..)..tapi zar terikat dalam bab usaha..because at some point mmg hopeless ttg usaha..hmm mcmana tuh agaknya…

Mcm zar terikat dlm persoalan sambung belajar..Bila Allah dah berikan segala nikmat utk BOLEH belajar..I choose not to further my study.. alasan tade minat.. or plg tepat.. malas pon iya..Will I be asked in the judgement day..why haven’t I use the nikmah yg Allah bg to study further..kufur nikmahkah zar?..sedangkan belajar adalah satu yg dituntut dlm islam..haaa nih yg takut nihs..Byk nIkmat Allah bg serentak kat seseorang tuh…then dia tak gunakan.. sdgkan org lain..kalau dpt peluang takkan lepaskan for everything in the world..

tapi zar pernah cuba satu masa dulu..buat satu bende pasal zar rasa Zar kene buat.. It’s not working..penghabisnya Zar jadi demotivated and stressed all the way.. hmm nak kata kurang motivation..diri sendiri bukan main pandai bg motivasi kat org..konon bagusla tuh..eheh..

K enough for merapu.. kat yahoogroup skrg..member bukan main hebat berbincang pasal human’s right and Bumiputera rights..tak sempat nak follow pasal ms diorang start tengah busy..tak sompek nak baco..ado maso pon..dok merapu mcm ginilah..ngabihkan boreh yo.. :}